Infertility Really Stinks

So I just need to vent a little. Hearing stories of "mothers" who want to prostitute their 5 year old really gets me worked up. Why are folks like this allowed to pro-create? I am due for an OB appointment tomorrow. This of course is humiliating and miserable for so many reasons. Of course, the issue of BCP versus ablasion will need to be addressed. You know what is so frustrating is knowing our family is complete, but I am just not ready to permanently remove the ability to conceive by my own decisions. Yet the alternative is debilitating pain for several days a month, or the expense of the BCP, which is so ironic in and of itself. Other bumps on the roller coaster is the joy of J&M succesfully getting through their 1st trimester, joy of seeing pics of J&J's beautiful baby through a homebirth, and the sadness for friends who are still unsuccessfully trying. So I keep praying. Wondering if they will get the same devastating news that we got 8 years ago. There's the joy of celebrating C's 7th birthday. Seriously, how could our baby be 7 already? Then the silliness of weeping for "Carl & Ellie" in the cartoon movie, "UP" when they learn of their inability to have children. How does one cry during a cartoon movie? Add to that I missed 2 pills in a row somehow, and the last 48 hours have been quite a trip. I don't like infertility. I didn't ask for this. I don't like that this decision was made for me. It is not the need for more children that makes me weep. It is the loss of all the experience of pregnancy, belly bumps, maternity clothes, parking in the "expectant Mom" spots, ultrasounds, no period for 9 months, morning sickness, water breaking and labor. Okay, so maybe I could do without the water breaking and labor part. I guess God just knew I couldn't handle that part. I think I need to start walking regularly. Walking feels good. It does good things for the body. How does one make a walking regimen with two little ones at home?

First Blog

Robert has been encouraging me to start a blog so that I have a place to put all my thoughts to text. I have been using facebook, but after hearing Kim Komando today mention that people actually use their blogs to earn revenue from google ads, those who know me, I'm always looking for a bargain or a way to earn a little extra, so figured I'd check it out. Haven't figured out the ad thing yet, but I guess I need to get some content added before I think it can generate revenue.

So at first I will probably copy over a bunch of my FB writings and then start blogging new stuff over here.

So far it's super easy.

I chose "Yankee Soprano" because I have always wanted to order a vanity plate that says, "SINGHIC" but I am too cheap to pay the extra. When I started playing around with it, it just didn't look right on blogger. I am a transplanted Yankee, grew up in New England, now living in Alabama, but definitely proud of my Yankee heritage. I sing and I am learning to play euphonium.

Most of my content will center around conservative politics, adoption, house and kid stuff, music, cooking and blessings or prayers. Robert and I have been married almost 11 years and we have been blessed with 3 beautiful girls. More about them later.